I Wrote This For You...

It's Been A Little While Since We Last Spoke
But I'm Pretty Sure You Knew How Much I Loved You
I Made It Clear At School In The Letters I Wrote To You
See...What I Loved Most About You Was That You Never Gave Me False Hope

You Sacrificed Your Whole Life For The People Of God
All I Knew As A Little Child Growing Up Was That You Were Superman
Watching You Preach The Gospel Sick Was Quite Odd

When I Left For School In The Fall...You Told Me That You Would See Me Soon
Who Knew That The Next Time I Would See You Would Be At Your Funeral??
I Admit That After Hearing The News On December 6th, That I Was Sick!!!
Out Of All The Dope Dealers, Liars, & Evil Crooks...You The One He Took.

For 20 Years, I Looked Up To You & I Wanted To Be WHOLE Just Like You
I Didn't Care About Your Past Mistakes, Bad Breaks, Nor Your History Record
Even When You Were Mad At Me You Still Made Me Feel Like I Was One Of Your Favorites
Can't You See That I'm Who I Am Today Because Of You??

You Gave Your Dollars To The Kids To Make Sure They Had Decent Shoes
You Didn't Give Money To The Homeless... Instead You Fed Them & Told Them Your Story Too
When It Came To Encouraging Us...I Watched You Hustle Like A Pimp Would Do
So You Being Sick Wasn't A Life Meant For You

Sometimes I Become So Angry & I Tell God That This Wasn't Fair
How Could You Take Away A Man Who Was Always There?? For Me & Everybody Else Who Needed Him.
You Leaving Hurt Us...But When I Think Of All Those Times You Didn't Feel Good Or Something Was Bothering You....You Didn't Complain. And I Become Upset With Myself Because Here I Am Tripping Off Of A Letter Grade.

This Month My Faith Was Tested
I Was Like...God What We Gon Do Now??
Our Father Is Gone & It's Not Fair
Then I Was Reminded This Week That God Never Said He Was Fair...He Said He Was Just.

Every Time I Become Weak & I Wanna Break Down & Cry
I Remind Myself That Your In Heaven With The King Himself
Yeah I'm Hurt...You Can See It In My Eyes
But Knowing That You Hear Me Keeps Me Alive

I Remember One Day You Told Me..."Girl You Fine!"
You Always Told Me How Pretty I Was So No Nigga Had To Tell Me
You Randomly Gave Me Knowledge To Help Me Better Understand
You Wasn't Into Hugging But You Always Hugged Me Anyway & Gave Me A Kiss On My Forehead

So I Wrote You This Because The Last Two Weeks I Been Holding On To It
My Birthday Is Next Week & I Don't Wanna Go Into Another Year Without Confirming This
I Loved You For 20 Years & Those Years I Will Never Forget

Right Now All I Can Do Is Cry Because I Feel So Much Closer To You
But In Honor Of You...I'm Not Going Backwards. I'm Moving Ahead
Things Are Now Made New Because Of You

So Rest Peacefully Knowing That God Is Taking Care Of Us
It Will Be One Sweet Day In Heaven When I See You Again
Until Then...I Will Be Doing What You Told Me To Do
I Love You...